An absence from blogging

At night when I lie in my bed and cannot immediately fall asleep, I compose a blog in my mind.  However, it rarely makes it to this little typing box.  *sigh*  There have been SO SO SO many great blogs that you will never be able to read.

I think of ways to tackle the blog of my grandmother's death, the reality of Samantha's birthday, the reality of my birthday, and all the fun fantastic things our daughter has done in the past few weeks.  For example, she had her first taco a few weeks before the funeral and LOVED it.  I don't think I wrote it down anywhere but I know it was one week before she passed away. I find it ironic that I use her death and funeral as a marker of before and after events.  I don't use my 2nd evaluation at work as a maker for before and after and I don't use the purchase of our new vehicle as before and after events.  Just weird I guess.........